Book Review:Take Charge of your Emotions by Dr.Linda J.Solie

I suffer from Ocd/Depression and Anxiety. I recently had the chance to review this book by Linda Solie. One of the things I did like about it is the Christian base of it. I love how God is brought into it and it's a Christian based book. It is filled with tons and tons of great information to help you take control of your thoughts,behaviors and feelings. It has things to write down to help you through your thoughts that are negative. She helps you to identify your thoughts and how to turn them into a positive one. I found the book a little confusing and could not understand some of it. It was a lot of information and I finally I just put it down. For some reason I just could not comprehend what was being said. While maybe not my kind of reading. It could very well be of help to someone else who can understand it better then me. Just be ready for lots of information and a clear thought process to understand it. I do applaud the writer for writing a book to help people with this terrible struggle.

I received this book free from Bethany house for my honest review

When I can't...he can

Hi all,well to whoever reads my ramblings:) I am just in a blah kind of mood. You know the moods where you just really don't know what you feel and if somebody ask you how are you feeling,well you just don't really know what to say because you don't know yourself. Ok if your still with me and not reading the past lines again confused at what I just said=) yay for you. I try so hard to be content in life and for the most part I am totally content. I don't sit around and pine on getting married or having a family. I really am at peace where I am with all that stuff in life. I content at where we are living for the most part because I know this where we are supposed to be at the moment. So really I don't really know how I am feeling. I think it's mainly just getting tired of waking up everyday with the OCD and feelings of depression some days. I never know when a major panic OCD could happen and I think I live in fear because of it. Well I don't think it ,I know I live in fear over it. I fear where I am going in life and how the illness sets me back in so many ways. I never know if it will be a good day or bad day,sometimes I feel such despair that I feel the Lord has left me. Even though I know that is not true at all,like my mom tells me sometimes when we are down and low and feel that way and can't even bring the words out in prayer,that is when he is carrying us through. He knows our pain and like the poem says,when you seen only one set of footprints,it was then that I was carrying you. I have not been able to even find the words to pray about the feelings I have,but yes indeed the Lord knows and that is when he is carrying me. So even though I don't really know a word for how I feel,I do know the Lord knows and yes he is carrying me even when I don't feel it and when I can't...he can!!

Bicentennial Capitol Mall State Park History Day!

Hey to all my blogging friends:) I have missed blogging!! I hope you all are well. I still visit your blogs,but some won't let me leave a comment for you. I am trying to figure out the problem..lol:) Thank you so much for all the prayers I received from you all!! I have got back on the medicine I was on at home and starting to feel better,but I still have days and still the OCD is here but I am still alive and blessed through it all. I will be leaving Facebook this week and now will devote my time to blogging. I feel I reach more people on here and I have made some great blogging buddies!! I am starting to like where we are living and getting used to it. There is so much to see around these parts and I plan to take time to enjoy the time we have here ever how long it is. This past weekend we went to Nashville and went to a Civil War History day. It was awesome and I have always wanted to see one. So in these next 3 post I will take you through our day trip:) Hope you enjoy!!

Love these Dresses that woman wore back in the day. I love the full skirts.

The Camp area where they cooked meals

The Out house area and Laundry

Beautiful Quilt

I loved to hear this group,they did a wonderful Job singing and playing

Loved her Dress

The little house tents set up

The Field Hospital

Another tent house set up

The preachers area and tent

Another camp set up

Can you just think how cold these tents would have been in Winter?

Getting it ready to show

Awesome

This was a great day and I enjoyed it very much!! Well til next time. I hope you all have a wonderful day my friends:)

Please keep me in your Prayers...

So sorry blog family. I have not been blogging much. It has been a rough past 2 weeks with my OCD and Depression. I will return soon with some posting,but in the mean time please keep me in your prayers. I would really appreciate it so so so much!! Much love and prayers to all:)

Just one day Closer...

Hey my bloggy friends!!

Hope all is well in your corners of the world. So I decided to take a break from facebook for awhile. I just get tired of it sometimes of it..lol. Plus I just want to focus more on other things and writing more on this blog. I get so tired sometimes and I am wore out here lately. Mentally I am just wore out from the OCD. I am on 3 different meds right now and I feel no change. I know there is no cure for ocd,but you would think the meds would take some of it away and give me some rest from it. It just really wears me out to go through each and every day I wake up. I am not trying to grumble or complain. I try to smile in spite of the trials I face,but it just gets hard sometimes. I still though praise the Lord for his many blessings and getting me through the days. I have no answers for why I go through what I go through. I pray for a healing and miracle everyday. You know what though. I just keep telling myself that if I don't get healed on this side. I'm one day closer to heaven and oh will I find my healing and perfect peace there. So my friend if your going through something. Just tell yourself "I'm one day closer to Heaven" where this will pass over in glory:) God bless you all.

Sweet Thoughts and Other Random Talk

Hello Blog World,

Hope this post finds everyone well:) Don't you just love those sweet little surprises that come your way? This past Saturday I was having a bad day with my Ocd and was just really wore out from it. I was in my room and my dad passed me a package that came for me in the mail. I opened it up and it was a beautiful needle point sewing of Teapots in a frame. My blogger friend had made and sent this too me with the sweetest card that made me tear up and was words I needed to hear at that moment. Isn't it wonderful how the Lord sends something to you right at the moment you need it? Thank you Lord for the blessing and for my sweet Christian friend for taking the time to make and send this to me:) You can visit Erica's blog by going to the right sidebar under links and going Aunt Erica:)

This past weekend we went to Goodwill. They have on the first Saturday of every month a 50% off everything in the store sale. I love it!! I got a pretty picture,A Journal, Little Women and Anne of Green Gables movie all for 5.48!!! What a deal. Tomorrow on Labor day at another thrift store they are having 50% off everything sale. I love their sale day at that store. I hope to go:)

It's rained all day this past Sunday and I loved it!! It has not rained hardly at all since I have been here and I loved it!! Hopefully it will cool down. It's suppose to be in the 70's this week compared to 100 we have been having. Bring out the coats..hahaha..Can't wait for cooler weather:)

Hope everyone has a wonderful Labor day and God bless!!

Just a Rambling post

I don't even know if anybody reads this blog anymore..haha:) Everybody has sorta gone all facebook. I think though I am going to start posting on here more. I am getting tired of facebook. I have so many thoughts in my head right now and so much I could blog about that is floating around as ideas. We are still living in the camper and on July 20th we sign for the new place and hopefully move in after that. Can't wait to be in my own space again. I love to camp it's just that after awhile you get to missing your own personal space with a door to just have time to yourself. I got an appointment next week with new doctors out here about my Ocd and Depression. I am kind of nervous about that and having to explain everything all over again. It gets really tiring having to talk about it. I'm not one who likes to sit down and tell all my problems to somebody. It's not that fun but I need the medicine so I need to go. The whole disease is very tiring and stressful. If it wasn't for the Lord I really don't think I could get though the hard days I face sometimes. Well enough talking from me. If you have anything you want to say or for me to write on or anything,please comment=) I love hearing from people!! It makes my day. God bless you all.

A Little Ramble Hello

Hey all,

Nothing much been going on!! I redone my blog again as you can see,I think I will stay put with it. I have had a bad weekend with the OCD/Depression,please pray for me!! It's been a tough weekend with it. I am tired of missing out on things because of it. So I am thankful for prayers:) I am no longer on Twitter I deleted my account I just could not get into it. I think Facebook is the best all around and easy thing to use to keep in touch. It's got cold again here,and here I thought maybe that was over,hopefully spring will come through and show fully soon. Their are those little yellow flowers all over my yard. I love to see flowers and everything blooming after a long winter. Well I must go,just wanted to drop by and say hey.

Please Pray..Pray hard for me.

Hello Blog world:)

Hope everyone is having a great weekend. Not been feeling so great myself. My Ocd has me too the point where I can't leave the house good anymore. Please just pray for a miracle on me for God to touch and heal me. I hate missing so many things in life because of it. I don't understand why I have to suffer with this so much,but in the end I know God will see me through,I just have to keep trusting. Some people take for granted just the simple things in life as getting in a car and going somewhere,but me it's got to the point where I can barely leave because the Ocd cranks up so bad. I tried to go to the store last Saturday and had to put my stuff down and stay home cause of the ocd and just being frustrated and tired. The same thing happened tonight. I took a shower and had my pocketbook on my shoulder ready to go out the the store and then I just put everything down and got frustrated. One time in the store awhile back I just left my buggy of stuff sitting in an asle and left and came home.I am just so mentally tired from it all. I have tried everything to get rid of it and nothing works,pretty much the meds just make me sleep. I hate missing out on life and missing church and missing just doing shopping or things for fun for my age. Nobody understands how ocd can affect one's life. Even if I do make it too a store I have to rush in and rush out and hurry right back home,it's no fun at all. I am just really drained and really tired mentally. I just want it to go away. I think of how long some waited in the bible for there miracles,they didn't come right off but they came in God's time. Mom keeps telling me just to hang in there the lord is going to heal me. I just have to keep trusting that. I just want healing. I just want to be ocd free. So please please pray for me:) I have suffered over 10 years with this with it starting as far back as elem.school. I have waited patient and I just please want you to pray for me that lord will heal me. While your praying please pray for the many people in the world that suffer from Ocd and Depression. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

My Journey in Life

What to blog about? Ummm? I don't even know if anybody reads my blog anymore..lol:) I am going to come up soon with something interesting,just don't what. I love just having a place on the web to share my thoughts with and to decorate it..lol. Everything in life is changing and I really don't know where my journey on this road is leading. I get so confused in life about so many things and having Ocd does not help it. I've been really confused lately. My ocd affects my life. I am so tired of it sometimes. People tell me there is a purpose for it and just to keep the faith that God will heal me. I have the faith,trust me I do,but I sometimes just break down and wonder if healing will ever come? I know if it don't happen on this earth,that in heaven I will be free of it. I get so fearful knowing chances are I will wake up with again tomorrow. It's a hard thing to even explain to people. God is truly the only person that knows me even when I can't find the words to say them. I can't stand days like today when I can't even leave the house because it's got me. It's my life though and I have to accept it until if God decides it his will for me to not suffer from ocd no more. There are some days I could go all day and then some days I can't even leave the house to go to church or to a store. Oh yes how I daily wish to be healed and not have to suffer like I do,but God is in control and I am letting him lead my step. I may get angry and I may cry and not understand why I must go through it. I just lean into God and he helps me carry the load. I don't know what my days ahead will bring me but I know who is guiding me and leading me each step of the way:) Wow I don't know how I got into this. I honestly was staring at a blank screen with nothing to blog about and my fingers just started typing this...I say it's just God talking through me:) Have a great weekend!

Life without Limits By Nick Vujicic Book Review

I recently had a chance to read this book and I want to say it was a great read!! He was born without arms and legs and most people in his situation would give up on life,but not Nick. In this book it taught me so much! I suffer from some depression and ocd problems and he inspired me so much in this book to not let your disability or sickness get in the way of enjoying your life. I felt at many times in the book he was talking right to me the reader! He tells various stories to inspire you. He tells of stories from his life and his childhood years and how he almost committed suicide because he was so upset at life and what he was born with,but he decided to live and now God has brought him into speaking for thousands around the world telling his story and inspiring people to get up and live and not let your problem get you depressed or down on life and angry. He made me just want to jump up and start really living in this book! I highly recommend it. It was a great book. Thank you Nick for inspiring so many people around the world with your love for God and life:)

I recieved this book free from Waterbrook Multnomah for my review

Something I needed to Share

It was really hard for me to share this with everyone,but I felt the need to make and share a testimony on my heart about some things in my life. May the Lord bless you all:)

National OCD Awareness Week!!

I just wanted to take the time to let everyone know it is National OCD Awareness Week!! I suffer from this and if you know anybody who does,it's not a joke or laughing matter. It is a serious disease that affects millions of people. It's not an easy life and takes a lot from the person dealing with it. Please pray that their is a cure one day out there so people do not have to suffer anymore from this life taking disease!!

To learn more about this disease or what you can do to help please click here!